Abandon 10th Anniversary Special Edition Reissue [LP]

by The Rose Phantom

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1.	All I Want 03:50	lyrics	buy track
All I want from you is love Just tell me that you need me All I want from you is truth Just hold me like you love me Love me Like all lovers do when love is true Feel me Like all lovers do when love is true All I need from you is love Can’t you see you’re killing me? All I want from you is truth It’s time you really feel me No more hiding under smiles Why can’t you just open up for me? I could cry these tears all night I guess I’ll cry you out of me Yeah Love me Like all lovers do when love is true Feel me Like all lovers do when love is true Hold me close Like all lovers do when love is true Touch me now Like all lovers do when love is true Love me (all I want from you is love) Like all lovers do when love is true Feel me (all I want from you is truth) Like all lovers do when love is true
2.	Here It Is 06:20	lyrics	buy track
Don’t you bother Your eyes are in the way The skies are all but grey Don’t you call her The tide will wash away The thoughts that make you stay Here it is All the laughter and the shame There it was All the nights you left me pain Searching for life When all outside is bright I’ll find you in the night Seeing inside I've realized my time I’ll walk straight down that line Here it is All the laughter and the shame There it was All the nights you left me pain Here it is All the crying in the rain There it was All the times you said to change Leaving you Giving myself to you Holding all your love and truth Here it is All the laughter and the shame There it was All the nights you left me pain Here it is All the crying in the rain There it was All the times you said to change
3.	The River Runs Wild Today 04:58	lyrics	buy track
Stay don’t fade away The river’s on fire today The river runs wild today Running the same old ground Locked up but now we’re found We still run round Where no one can be found Searching for hope In the same old places I want to reach out and touch The face of the morning sun Where love is one Where we come from The desert sun Where light is one Stay don’t fade away The river’s on fire today The river runs wild today Knocking on ghostly doors Watching my step through The holy floors I feel the breeze Sweeping past the desert trees Seeking the light in the dark of night I hope to find you there Run my hands through The golden hair We make love tonight No need to search for light The moon is in the sky We’ll feed the fire tonight Stay don’t fade away The river’s on fire today The river runs wild today
4.	Emotional Closet 06:00	lyrics	buy track
I’m searching for light In the heart of you Playing with fire To find the truth And in your eyes - I found home I didn’t think twice - I’m in love I enter the night - I’ve come undone I only dream of you - I wish you’d come Losing my mind Take me far from here Where the sun always shines And the sky is clear Riding the tide To find you near Holding you tight To kiss you here And in your eyes - I found home I didn’t think twice - I’m in love I enter the night - I’ve come undone I only dream of you - I wish you’d come And at night we will shine We’re a star in the sky We are high The feelings are here Don’t you disappear I’ll love you tonight It’s ok to cry And in your eyes - I found home I didn’t think twice - I’m in love I enter the night - you are all I think of I only dream of you - look what I’ve become
5.	Destiny Wants My Heart 07:21	lyrics	buy track
I feel alone and scared I watch the walls and stare I hope she calls out loud Like spring is to fall I know it’s over now And if you want me Just for one night We will dine by candle light And if you need me Don’t be shy Please don’t deceive me Don’t even try Destiny wants my heart To suck the blood And kill me off I’m dying of my restless heart I’ve lived a lie right from the start I feel alone and scared I watch the walls and stare I need to run straight out And stare at the sun To blind my doubt And if you taunt me All through the night I will die right in your sight And if you love me oh so sweet I will fall right at your feet Destiny wants my heart To suck the blood And kill me off I’m dying of my restless heart I’ve lived a lie right from the start
6.	New Dreams 05:11	lyrics	buy track
(wake up) In my heart there’s room for you Strange and dark yet full of truth Filled with love I could give to you So much blood we’ll drink for two In shades of grey light I found new dreams to hold on to I was lost but then I found you In waves of glorious light I found new dreams to hold on to I was lost but then I found you (wake up) With these hands I’m feeling you Lying in the wanted room Every time my heart stops It’s over you If only these dreams could be Real and true In shades of grey light I found new dreams to hold on to I was lost but then I found you In waves of glorious light I found new dreams to hold on to I was lost but then I found you (wake up)
7.	Into The Day 03:30	lyrics	buy track
I’ve already lost my mind Somewhere between two worlds I’m a ghost to you The face of reason has split in two As I stand I wish to hold your hand As we disappear When life’s a crazy train Just face it in the rain And wash it all away today When love’s the shade of grey The letters fade away Into the day Slipping through the cracks Waiting for winter to pass See the leaves turn green Wishing it was already spring As I hide I put my heart on the line And rise to the open world Running into the day Fade away Into the day Fade away Into the day When life’s a crazy train Just face it in the rain And wash it all away today When love’s the shade of grey The letters fade away Into the day
8.	Once In A While 05:24	lyrics	buy track
Memories They taste so sour A fallen ghost It’s the ravens hour Beside the grave There stands a tower Casting a shadow On the lonely flower Once in a while I’ll be home Tainted by the light of a new dawn Behind the light The fear takes flight In my sight Are the birds of night I just might See past the fright My eyes closed tight From the blinding sunlight Once in a while I’ll be home Tainted by the light of a new dawn Once in a while I’ll be home again Take the time to memorize these lines I give you It’s only now you’ve seen the how I’ve tried to sin you Open wide There’s something inside I have to give you Don’t talk Just walk Into the sun That’s where I’m from That’s where you’re from That’s where life begun Look up at the stars east from mars And tell me Do you see me? Do you want to be free?
9.	Until 06:52	lyrics	buy track
Through weaknesses I never should’ve bothered I never should’ve called for her (until) From dark to light I run until I hide I run until I hide from her Until the rain runs by
10.	It's Over Now 05:12	lyrics	buy track
Killing me so softly Wasting time in the factory Holding life in front of me Love in love And time will find your love outside Hey it’s over now It’s inevitable and so shameful Want to die and set you free Reasons why are deafening Winter skies are all I see Hiding inside where you can’t see me Love in love And life will give you all to find your love inside Wanting to collect You’re never looking back again So now in your darkest hour You smell the flower That leaves you wanting more That leaves you wanting more That leaves you wanting Hey it’s over now It’s inevitable and so shameful
11.	All I Want (Demo) 04:41	lyrics	buy track
All I want from you is love Just tell me that you need me All I want from you is truth Just hold me like you love me Love me Like all lovers do when love is true Feel me Like all lovers do when love is true All I need from you is love Can’t you see you’re killing me? All I want from you is truth It’s time you really feel me No more hiding under smiles Why can’t you just open up for me? I could cry these tears all night I guess I’ll cry you out of me Yeah Love me Like all lovers do when love is true Feel me Like all lovers do when love is true Hold me close Like all lovers do when love is true Touch me now Like all lovers do when love is true Love me (all I want from you is love) Like all lovers do when love is true Feel me (all I want from you is truth) Like all lovers do when love is true
12.	Here It Is (Demo) 06:48	lyrics	buy track
Don’t you bother Your eyes are in the way The skies are all but grey Don’t you call her The tide will wash away The thoughts that make you stay Here it is All the laughter and the shame There it was All the nights you left me pain Searching for life When all outside is bright I’ll find you in the night Seeing inside I've realized my time I’ll walk straight down that line Here it is All the laughter and the shame There it was All the nights you left me pain Here it is All the crying in the rain There it was All the times you said to change Leaving you Giving myself to you Holding all your love and truth Here it is All the laughter and the shame There it was All the nights you left me pain Here it is All the crying in the rain There it was All the times you said to change
13.	The River Runs Wild Today (Demo) 04:44	lyrics	buy track
Stay don’t fade away The river’s on fire today The river runs wild today Running the same old ground Locked up but now we’re found We still run round Where no one can be found Searching for hope In the same old places I want to reach out and touch The face of the morning sun Where love is one Where we come from The desert sun Where light is one Stay don’t fade away The river’s on fire today The river runs wild today Knocking on ghostly doors Watching my step through The holy floors I feel the breeze Sweeping past the desert trees Seeking the light in the dark of night I hope to find you there Run my hands through The golden hair We make love tonight No need to search for light The moon is in the sky We’ll feed the fire tonight Stay don’t fade away The river’s on fire today The river runs wild today
14.	Emotional Closet (Demo) 05:48	lyrics	buy track
I’m searching for light In the heart of you Playing with fire To find the truth And in your eyes - I found home I didn’t think twice - I’m in love I enter the night - I’ve come undone I only dream of you - I wish you’d come Losing my mind Take me far from here Where the sun always shines And the sky is clear Riding the tide To find you near Holding you tight To kiss you here And in your eyes - I found home I didn’t think twice - I’m in love I enter the night - I’ve come undone I only dream of you - I wish you’d come And at night we will shine We’re a star in the sky We are high The feelings are here Don’t you disappear I’ll love you tonight It’s ok to cry And in your eyes - I found home I didn’t think twice - I’m in love I enter the night - you are all I think of I only dream of you - look what I’ve become
15.	Destiny Wants My heart (Demo) 07:22	lyrics	buy track
I feel alone and scared I watch the walls and stare I hope she calls out loud Like spring is to fall I know it’s over now And if you want me Just for one night We will dine by candle light And if you need me Don’t be shy Please don’t deceive me Don’t even try Destiny wants my heart To suck the blood And kill me off I’m dying of my restless heart I’ve lived a lie right from the start I feel alone and scared I watch the walls and stare I need to run straight out And stare at the sun To blind my doubt And if you taunt me All through the night I will die right in your sight And if you love me oh so sweet I will fall right at your feet Destiny wants my heart To suck the blood And kill me off I’m dying of my restless heart I’ve lived a lie right from the start
16.	New Dreams (Demo) 04:59	lyrics	buy track
(wake up) In my heart there’s room for you Strange and dark yet full of truth Filled with love I could give to you So much blood we’ll drink for two In shades of grey light I found new dreams to hold on to I was lost but then I found you In waves of glorious light I found new dreams to hold on to I was lost but then I found you (wake up) With these hands I’m feeling you Lying in the wanted room Every time my heart stops It’s over you If only these dreams could be Real and true In shades of grey light I found new dreams to hold on to I was lost but then I found you In waves of glorious light I found new dreams to hold on to I was lost but then I found you (wake up)
17.	Into The Day (Demo) 03:22	lyrics	buy track
I’ve already lost my mind Somewhere between two worlds I’m a ghost to you The face of reason has split in two As I stand I wish to hold your hand As we disappear When life’s a crazy train Just face it in the rain And wash it all away today When love’s the shade of grey The letters fade away Into the day Slipping through the cracks Waiting for winter to pass See the leaves turn green Wishing it was already spring As I hide I put my heart on the line And rise to the open world Running into the day Fade away Into the day Fade away Into the day When life’s a crazy train Just face it in the rain And wash it all away today When love’s the shade of grey The letters fade away Into the day
18.	Once In A While (Demo) 05:25	lyrics	buy track
Memories They taste so sour A fallen ghost It’s the ravens hour Beside the grave There stands a tower Casting a shadow On the lonely flower Once in a while I’ll be home Tainted by the light of a new dawn Behind the light The fear takes flight In my sight Are the birds of night I just might See past the fright My eyes closed tight From the blinding sunlight Once in a while I’ll be home Tainted by the light of a new dawn Once in a while I’ll be home again Take the time to memorize these lines I give you It’s only now you’ve seen the how I’ve tried to sin you Open wide There’s something inside I have to give you Don’t talk Just walk Into the sun That’s where I’m from That’s where you’re from That’s where life begun Look up at the stars east from mars And tell me Do you see me? Do you want to be free?
19.	Until (Demo) 06:42	lyrics	buy track
Through weaknesses I never should’ve bothered I never should’ve called for her (until) From dark to light I run until I hide I run until I hide from her Until the rain runs by
20.	It's Over Now (Demo) 05:14	lyrics	buy track
Killing me so softly Wasting time in the factory Holding life in front of me Love in love And time will find your love outside Hey it’s over now It’s inevitable and so shameful Want to die and set you free Reasons why are deafening Winter skies are all I see Hiding inside where you can’t see me Love in love And life will give you all to find your love inside Wanting to collect You’re never looking back again So now in your darkest hour You smell the flower That leaves you wanting more That leaves you wanting more That leaves you wanting Hey it’s over now It’s inevitable and so shameful
21.	Love Not Despair (Demo) 06:11	lyrics	buy track
You're not moving much You're still fearing my touch And you're all alone You're still hanging around You're always lost but not found But you're coming home I will find you there With flowers in your hair Holding love not despair I will find you there We're the perfect pair We dance with love not despair I find you there With flowers in your hair Holding love not despair When will you run Into my arms again And kill this loneliness When will you come Into my heart again And tell me you'll never go Because you love me so Because you love me so Because you love me so And that you'll never go I will I will I will I will I will I will I will I will I will find you there With flowers in your hair Holding love not despair I will find you there We're the perfect pair We dance with love not despair
22.	The Path That Leads (Demo) 06:06	lyrics	buy track
Winter comes and winter goes Darkness falls while the wind blows In my dark and lonesome hours I want to share the sight of the flowers Raise your wall Take the path that leads to nowhere The path that leads you to ease it all Feeling small Take the light which you know is there The light that leads you through dark caves and all On the path but really lost Walking through life's hot spots To wake in blue Watching the leaves turn to grey Winter's lust says come and play Do I really want it this way? Raise your wall Take the path that leads to nowhere The path that leads you to stumble and fall Feeling small Take the light which you know is there The light that leads you through dark caves and all Now that you're here you're gone for good Forever and ever I always mistook now that you're here never to sever Now that you're here you're gone for good Forever and ever I always mistook now that you're here never to sever Raise your wall Take the path that leads to nowhere The path that leads you to erase it all Feeling small Take the light which you know is there The light that leads you through dark caves and all Raise your wall Take the path that leads to nowhere The path that leads you to stumble and fall Feeling small Take the light which you know is there The light that leads you through dark caves and all Raise your wall Take the path that leads to nowhere The path that leads you to erase it all Feeling small Take the light which you know is there The light that leads you through dark caves and all
23.	There Are No Words To Say (Demo) 05:04	lyrics	buy track
You're a star in the night sky You're Shining like you never wanted anyone You're clown in this broken world Hold your head right up You need someone Someone To hold you Someone To kiss you Someone Love, there are no words to say You'll find out your own way You'll find out in a day My Love, there are no words to say I'll find out my own way I'll find out in a day You have died in your empty room Waiting for someone to meet you there Tip your hat and walk away No one has to know you died that day Die Don't say Die Today Die Oh, don't tell me that you died Don't tell me that you died today I'm swimming in your eyes Drifting out of life Please hold me as I die Love, there are no words to say You'll find out your own way You'll find out in a day My Love, there are no words to say I'll find out my own way I'll find out in a day Love, there are no words to say You'll find out your own way You'll find out in a day My Love, there are no words to say I'll find out my own way I'll find out in a day
24.	For Now The Wind Is Blowin' (Demo) 05:08	lyrics	buy track
Into the dark Taken from the start of something real and so true Crying for the thought of only you and me Together in this mess we all call life And I'll hold, hold you in my heart forever And see that for now it's a lot of tryin' Don't believe cause for now the wind is blowin' Into the light Shining down so bright upon me I feel so alive The desert sky has filled me with such hope To go and carry on and walk straight down that road And at night I'm guided by the light of Luna And see that for now it's a lot of tryin' Don't believe cause for now the wind is blowin' Only see that for now it's a lot of tryin' Don't believe cause for now the wind is blowin' All right Hey You and I are alive The Desert sky makes us high The sun is align with our eyes Come on You and I are alive And see that for now it's a lot of tryin' Don't believe cause for now the wind is blowin' Only see that for now it's a lot of tryin' Don't believe For now the restless wind is blowin' For now the restless wind is blowin' For now the restless wind is blowin' For now the restless wind is blowin'
25.	Desert High (Demo) 03:43	lyrics	buy track
I'm awake when I dream Dream of you Your emery teases me So I've come for A desert high The lucid sky Through the camera eye The fires at night shine a golden bright Until the rain runs by A desert high The lucid sky Through the camera eye The fires at night shine a golden bright Until the rain runs by I'm intoxicated with the memories Of blue and the sand beneath my feet It's where lovers meet A desert high The lucid sky Through the camera eye The fires at night shine a golden bright Until the rain runs by A desert high The lucid sky Through the camera eye The fires at night shine a golden bright Until the rain runs by Standing beneath the sun The warmth melts down on me We have become one A desert high The lucid sky Through the camera eye The fires at night shine a golden bright Until the rain runs by A desert high The lucid sky Through the camera eye The fires at night shine a golden bright Until the rain runs by Until the rain runs by Until the rain runs by Until the rain runs by Until the rain runs by
26.	In The Forest Of Your Heart (Demo) 06:21	lyrics	buy track
In times Times of change We can hear the voice of shame Calling you, calling me We'll light the fire that sets us free Eternally Take it in you heart And it all will fly so high In the forest of your heart I have already loved you there In the backroads of the park I have already found you there Alone in the trees so bare With your fading face I have nothing left to say For right now it's only a taste To see you in silence to lose the trace Of Heaven's grace Take it in your heart and it all will fall apart In the forest of your heart I have already loved you there In the backroads of the park I have already found you there Alone in the trees so bare In the forest of your heart Through the leaves that change like hearts I see you there In the backroads of the park Around the corner in the dark In the forest of your heart In the backroads of the park In the forest of your heart In the backroads of the park In the forest of your heart In the backroads of the park In the forest of your heart In the backroad of the park In the forest of your heart
27.	Love Will Never Find A Way (Demo) 06:35	lyrics	buy track
I'm seeing lies In your kaleidoscope eyes In your kaleidoscope of lies And you can't fool me But you can move me With your hypnotic web of lies Love Love Love will never find a way Love Love Love will never find a way Oh my heart Aches from pain That you could take That you could take away And replace With a kiss upon my face With a kiss upon my face With a kiss upon my face With a kiss upon my face With a kiss upon my face And I can move you And I can soothe you Forever Forever Forever Or just for one day Just for one day Just for one day Love Love Love will never find a way Love Love Love will never find a way Love Love Love will never find a way All the waves separate in space Hear the sound that brings you down All the while you made me smile On a day we'll celebrate All the waves separate in space Hear the sound that brings you down All the while you made me smile On a day we'll celebrate
28.	The Strangest Weather (Demo) 03:31	lyrics	buy track
It takes me somewhere Somewhere I can't explain This strange illusion of dreaming in the rain Look into the sky and find out your own way If you see it in light I'll wash out all the shame The clouds are forming The sensation in the air The shadows are here Never fear the overcast sky of grey Dreams of blue A world of wanderlust and truth It's calls to me a lucid sky big and blue The strangest weather and what it means All entailed in a journey to find out our dreams The strangest weather and what it means All entailed in a journey to find out our dreams
29.	Into The Day (A Bare Instrumental Mix) 03:19	lyrics	buy track
Instrumental
30.	The River Runs Wild (Live Unplugged 2013) 04:56	lyrics	buy track
Stay don’t fade away The river’s on fire today The river runs wild today Running the same old ground Locked up but now we’re found We still run round Where no one can be found Searching for hope In the same old places I want to reach out and touch The face of the morning sun Where love is one Where we come from The desert sun Where light is one
31.	New Dreams (2022 Piano Version) 05:59	lyrics	buy track
In my heart there’s room for you Strange and dark yet full of truth Filled with love I could give to you So much blood we’ll drink for two In shades of grey light I found new dreams to hold on to I was lost but then I found you In waves of glorious light I found new dreams to hold on to I was lost but then I found you Wake up Wake up With these hands I’m feeling you Lying in the wanted room Every time my heart stops It’s over you If only these dreams could be Real and true In shades of grey light I found new dreams to hold on to I was lost but then I found you In waves of glorious light I found new dreams to hold on to I was lost but then I found you
32.	For Now The Wind Is Blowin' (2011 SSi Studio Version) 05:18	lyrics	buy track
Into the dark Taken from the start of something real and so true Crying for the thought of only you and me Together in this mess we all call life And I'll hold, hold you in my heart forever And see that for now it's a lot of tryin' Don't believe cause for now the wind is blowin' Into the light Shining down so bright upon me I feel so alive The desert sky has filled me with such hope To go and carry on and walk straight down that road And at night I'm guided by the light of Luna And see that for now it's a lot of tryin' Don't believe cause for now the wind is blowin' Only see that for now it's a lot of tryin' Don't believe cause for now the wind is blowin' All right Hey You and I are alive The Desert sky makes us high The sun is align with our eyes Come on You and I are alive And see that for now it's a lot of tryin' Don't believe cause for now the wind is blowin' Only see that for now it's a lot of tryin' Don't believe cause the restless wind is blowin' Cause the restless wind is blowin' The restless wind The restless wind
33.	Liar (Abandon Outtake) 05:07	lyrics	buy track
You're such a liar Such a scourge Such a fucker I will burn Hey, Liar, you're bleeding in the night And you fucked with, you fucked my head all right Year after year I fall into a dark hole In love in lust in truth You let me down You let me down Hey, Liar, you're bleeding in the night And you fucked with, you fucked my head all right Hey, Liar, you're feeding off my light And you fucked with, you fucked up all my sight Hey, Liar, you're bleeding in the night And you fucked with, you fucked my head all right Hey, Liar, you're feeding off my light And you fucked with, you fucked up all my sight

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This is the 10th anniversary edition of The Rose Phantom's fan favorite album, Abandon. Originally released in 2012, Abandon is the debut album under "The Rose Phantom" moniker. The album was produced by "Danegerous" Dane Morrow & TRP.

This new reissue features original demos, acoustic versions, and tracks that didn't make the final cut.

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released December 21, 2022

All Words, Music & Arrangements
By: The Rose Phantom
Engineered, Produced & Mixed
By: "Danegerous" Dane Morrow & The Rose Phantom (Track 32 Produced & Mixed by Matt Winegar)
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By: Aidan Foley (Tracks 01-10) & Chris Petty (11-33)

The original album was recorded from Sept. 2011 - March 2012

Demos recorded from 2009-2012

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The Rose Phantom is the alter ego of Ted Newsom, with musical styles ranging from Darkwave, Pop Rock, Industrial Rock, and Ambient.

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